In making this confession public, I am aware that I am giving a butterfly
to be broken on a wheel. There is so much of delicacy in its subject, that
the mere resolve to handle it at all might seem to imply a lack of the
sensitiveness necessary to its understanding; and it is certain that the
more reverent the touch, the more irresistible will figure its opportunity
to the common scepticism which is bondslave to its five senses. Moreover
one cannot, in the reason of things, write to publish for Aristarchus
alone; but the gauntlet of Grub Street must be run in any bid for truth
On the other hand, to withhold from evidence, in these days of what one
may call a zetetic psychology, anything which may appear elucidatory,
however exquisitely and rarely, of our spiritual relationships, must be
pronounced, I think, a sin against the Holy Ghost.
All in all, therefore, I decide to give, with every passage to personal
identification safeguarded, the story of a possession, or visitation,
which is signified in the title to my narrative.
Tryphena was the sole orphaned representative of an obscure but gentle
family which had lived for generations in the east of England. The spirit
of the fens, of the long grey marshes, whose shores are the neutral ground
of two elements, slumbered in her eyes. Looking into them, one seemed to
see little beds of tiny green mosses luminous under water, or stirred by
the movement of microscopic life in their midst. Secrets, one felt, were
shadowed in their depths, too frail and sweet for understanding. The
pretty love-fancy of babies seen in the eyes of maidens, was in hers to be
interpreted into the very cosmic dust of sea-urchins, sparkling like
chrysoberyls. Her soul looked out through them, as if they were the
windows of a water-nursery.
She was always a child among children, in heart and knowledge most
innocent, until Jason came and stood in her field of vision. Then spirit
of the neutral ground as she was, inclining to earth or water with the
sway of the tides, she came wondering and dripping, as it were, to land,
and took up her abode for final choice among the daughters of the earth.
She knew her woman's estate, in fact, and the irresistible attraction of
all completed perfections to the light that burns to destroy them.
Tryphena was not only an orphan, but an heiress. Her considerable
estate was administered by her guardian, Jason's father, a widower, who
was possessed of this single adored child. The fruits of parental
infatuation had come early to ripen on the seedling. The boy was
self-willed and perverse, the more so as he was naturally of a hot-hearted
disposition. Violence and remorse would sway him in alternate moods, and
be made, each in its turn, a self-indulgence. He took a delight in
crossing his father's wishes, and no less in atoning for his gracelessness
with moving demonstrations of affection.
Foremost of the old man's most cherished projects was, very naturally,
a union between the two young people. He planned, manoeuvred, spoke for it
with all his heart of love and eloquence.
And, indeed, it seemed at last as if his hopes were to be crowned.
Jason, returning from a lengthy voyage (for his enterprising spirit had
early decided for the sea, and he was a naval officer), saw, and was
struck amazed before, the transformed vision of his old child-play-fellow.
She was an opened flower whom he had left a green bud—a thing so rare and
flawless that it seemed a sacrilege for earthly passions to converse of
her. Familiarity, however, and some sense of reciprocal attraction,
quickly dethroned that eucharist. Tryphena could blush, could thrill,
could.solicit, in the sweet ways of innocent womanhood. She loved him
dearly, wholly, it was plain— had found the realisation of her old
formless dreams in this wondrous birth of a desire for one, in whose
new-impassioned eves she had known herself reflected hitherto only for the
most patronised of small gossips. And, for her part, fearless as nature,
she made no secret of her love.
She was absorbed in, a captive to, Jason from that moment and for ever.
He responded. What man, however perverse, could have resisted, on first
appeal, the attraction of such beauty, the flower of a radiant soul? The
two were betrothed; the old man's cup of happiness was brimmed.
Then came clouds and a cold wind, chilling the garden of Hesperis.
Jason was always one of those who, possessing classic noses, will cut them
off, on easy provocation, to spite their faces.
He was so proudly independent, to himself, that he resented the least
assumption of proprietorship in him on the part of other people—even of
those who had the best claim to his love and submission. This pride was an
obsession. It stultified the real good in him, which was considerable.
Apart from it, he was a good, warm-tempered fellow, hasty but
affectionate. Under its dominion, he would have broken his own heart on an
He found one, it is to be supposed, in the privileges assumed by love;
in its exacting claims upon him; perhaps in its little unreasoning
jealousies. He distorted these into an implied conceit of authority over
him on the part of an heiress who was condescending to his meaner
The suggestion was quite base and without warrant; but pride has no
balance. No doubt, moreover, the rather childish self-depreciations of the
old man, his father, in his attitude towards a match he had so fondly
desired, helped to aggravate this feeling. The upshot was that, when
within a few months of the date which was to make his union with Tryphena
eternal, Jason broke away from a restraint which his pride pictured to him
as intolerable, and went on a yachting expedition with a friend.
Then, at once, and with characteristic violence, came the reaction. He
wrote, impetuously, frenziedly, from a distant port, claiming himself
Tryphena's, and Tryphena his, for ever and ever and ever. They were man
and wife before God. He had behaved like an insensate brute, and he was at
that moment starting to speed to her side, to beg her forgiveness and the
return of her love.
He had no need to play the suitor afresh. She had never doubted or
questioned their mutual bondage, and would have died a maid for his sake.
Something of sweet exultation only seemed to quicken and leap in her body,
that her faith in her dear love was vindicated.
But the joy came near to upset the reason of the old man, already
tottering to its dotage; and what followed destroyed it utterly.
The yacht, flying home, was lost at sea, and Jason was drowned.
I once saw Tryphena about this time. She lived with her near mindless
charge, lonely, in an old grey house upon the borders of a salt mere, and
had little but the unearthly cries of seabirds to answer to the questions
of her widowed heart. She worked, sweet in charity, among the marsh folk,
a beautiful unearthly presence; and was especially to be found where
infants and the troubles of child-bearing women called for her help and
sympathy. She was a wife herself, she would say quaintly; and some day
perhaps, by grace of the good spirits of the sea, would be a mother. None
thought to cross her statement, put with so sweet a sanity; and, indeed, I
have often noticed that the neighbourhood of great waters breeds in souls
a mysticism which is remote from the very understanding of land-dwellers.
How I saw her was thus:— I was fishing, on a day of chill calm, in a
dinghy off the flat coast.
The stillness of the morning had tempted me some distance from the
village where I was staying. Presently a sense of bad sport and healthy
famine 'plumped' in me, so to speak, for luncheon, and I looked about for
a spot picturesque enough to add a zest to sandwiches, whisky, and
tobacco. Close by, a little creek or estuary ran up into a mere, between
which and the sea lay a cluster of low sand-hills; and thither I pulled.
The spot, when I reached it, was calm, chill desolation manifest—lifeless
water and lifeless sand, with no traffic between them but the dead
interchange of salt. Low sedges, at first, and behind them low woods were
mirrored in the water at a distance, with an interval between me and them
of sheeted glass; and right across this shining pool ran a dim,
half-drowned causeway—the seapath, it appeared, to and from a lonely house
which I could just distinguish squatting among trees. It was Tryphena's
Now, paddling dispiritedly, I turned a cold dune, and saw a mermaid
before me. At least, that was my instant impression. The creature sat
coiled on the strand, combing her hair—that was certain, for I saw the
gold-green tresses of it whisked by her action into rainbow threads. It
appeared as certain that her upper half was flesh and her lower fish; and
it was only on my nearer approach that this latter resolved itself into a
pale green skirt, roped, owing to her posture, about her limbs, and the
hem fanned out at her feet into a tail fin. Thus also her bosom, which had
appeared naked, became a bodice, as near to her flesh in colour and
texture as a smock is to a lady's-smock, which some call a cuckoo-flower.
It was plain enough now; yet the illusion for the moment had quite
As I came near, she paused in her strange business to canvass me. It
was Tryphena herself, as after-inquiry informed me. I have never seen so
lovely a creature. Her eyes, as they regarded me passing, were something
to haunt a dream: so great in tragedy—not fathomless, but all in motion
near their surfaces, it seemed, with green and rooted sorrows. They were
the eyes, I thought, of an Undine late-humanised, late awakened to the
rapturous and troubled knowledge of the woman's burden. Her forehead was
most fair, and the glistening thatch divided on it like a golden cloud
revealing the face of a wondering angel.
I passed, and a sand-heap stole my vision foot by foot. The vision was
gone when I returned. I have reason to believe it was vouchsafed me within
a few months of the coming of the ghost-child.
On the morning succeeding the night of the day on which Jason and
Tryphena were to have been married, the girl came down from her bedroom
with an extraordinary expression of still rapture on her face. After
breakfast she took the old man into her confidence. She was childish
still; her manner quite youthfully thrilling; but now there was a newborn
wonder in it that hovered on the pink of shame.
'Father! I have been under the deep waters and found him. He came to me
last night in my dreams—so sobbing, so impassioned—to assure me that he
had never really ceased to love me, though he had near broken his own
heart pretending it. Poor boy! poor ghost! What could I do but take him to
my arms? And all night he lay there, blest and forgiven, till in the
morning he melted away with a sigh that woke me; and it seemed to mc that
I came up dripping from the sea.'.
'My boy! He has come back!' chuckled the old man. 'What have you done
with him, Tryphena?'.
'I will hold him tighter the next time,' she said.
But the spirit of Jason visited her dreams no more.
That was in March. In the Christmas following, when the mere was locked
in stillness, and the wan reflection of snow mingled on the ceiling with
the red dance of firelight, one morning the old man came hurrying and
panting to Tryphena's door.
'Tryphena! Come down quickly! My boy, my Jason, has come back! It was a
lie that they told us about his being lost at sea!'.
Her heart leapt like a candle-flame! What new delusion of the old man's
was this? She hurried over her dressing and descended. A garrulous old
voice mingled with a childish treble in the breakfast-room. Hardly
breathing, she turned the handle of the door, and saw Jason before her.
But it was Jason, the prattling babe of her first knowledge; Jason, the
flaxen-headed, apple-cheeked cherub of the nursery; Jason, the confiding,
the merry, the loving, before pride had come to warp his innocence. She
fell on her knees to the child, and with a burst of ecstasy caught him to
She asked no question of the old man as to when or whence this
apparition had come, or why he was here. For some reason she dared not.
She accepted him as some waif, whom an accidental likeness had made
glorious to their hungering hearts. As for the father, he was utterly
satisfied and content. He had heard a knock at the door, he said, and had
opened it and found this. The child was naked, and his pink, wet body
glazed with ice. Yet he seemed insensible to the killing cold. It was
Jason—that was enough. There is no date nor time for imbecility. Its
phantoms spring from the clash of ancient memories. This was just as
actually his child as—more so, in fact, than—the grown young figure which,
for all its manhood, had dissolved into the mist of waters. He was more
familiar with, more confident of it, after all. It had come back to be
unquestioningly dependent on him; and that was likest the real Jason,
flesh of his flesh.
'Who are you, darling?' said Tryphena.
'I am Jason,' answered the child.
She wept, and fondled him rapturously.
'And who am I?' she asked. "If you are Jason, you must know what to
'I know,' he said; 'but I mustn't, unless you ask me.'.
'I won't,' she answered, with a burst of weeping. 'It is Christmas Day,
dearest, when the miracle of a little child was wrought. I will ask you
nothing but to stay and bless our desolate home.'.
He nodded, laughing.
'I will stay, until you ask me.'.
They found some little old robes of the baby Jason, put away in
lavender, and dressed him in them. All day he laughed and prattled; yet it
was strange that, talk as he might, he never once referred to matters
familiar to the childhood of the lost sailor.
In the early afternoon he asked to be taken out—seawards, that was his
wish. Tryphena clothed him warmly, and, taking his little hand, led him
away. They left the old man sleeping peacefully.
He was never to wake again.
As they crossed the narrow causeway, snow, thick and silent, began to
fall. Tryphena was not afraid, for herself or the child. A rapture upheld
her; a sense of some compelling happiness, which she knew before long must
take shape on her lips.
They reached the seaward dunes—mere ghosts of foothold in that smoke of
flakes. The lap of vast waters seemed all around them, hollow and
mysterious. The sound flooded Tryphena's ears, drowning her senses. She
cried out, and stopped.
'Before they go,' she screamed—'before they go, tell me what you were
to call me!'.The child sprang a little distance, and stood facing her.
Already his lower limbs seemed dissolving in the mists.
'I was to call you "mother"!' he cried, with a smile and toss of his
Even as he spoke, his pretty features wavered and vanished. The snow
broke into him, or he became part with it. Where he had been, a gleam of
iridescent dust seemed to show one moment before it sank and was
extinguished in the falling cloud. Then there was only the snow, heaping
an eternal chaos with nothingness.
Tryphena made this confession, on a Christmas Eve night, to one who was
a believer in dreams. The next morning she was seen to cross the causeway,
and thereafter was never seen again. But she left the sweetest memory
behind her, for human charity, and an elf-life gift of loveliness.